It’s a different kind of cheating that I’m gonna talk about today. I cheated in one of our quizzes. It’s a big deal for me I don’t really do this. Not that I’m trying to make myself look good but I really really suck at it! Some students are like pro that no one can really notice them. But not me, when I cheat, everybody notices.

So we’re having this post lecture quiz. I suddenly, my mind went blank because I wasn’t able to answer the first easy questions. We were already at number 9, and my paper is still blank. I panicked, because during our lecture, my prof even commend me so I got even more pressured. I have no choice. But I’m not going to blame anyone, it’s really my fault. 

Half way through the quiz, my prof suddenly announced, “Warning to those who are cheating.” OMG. I looked calm but inside i’m panicking. He’s one of my favorite professors. I felt really bad. At the end of the quiz, I found out that I’m not the only one guilty. But I’m pretty sure that I’m the one he’s pertaining. I felt really bad that I even want to confront my professor and apologize. I really suck. You see I rarely cheat and most of the time I really got caught. I swear. Never to cheat again. 

We’ve still been awesome after our cool off and our break-up. We still like to joke around each other and talk like we haven’t seen each other for so long. Arrive 7:30 everyday at school, even though our class starts at 8am to have a small talk and wait for each other after classes in the afternoon.

But I still miss us as a couple. I miss our whole day dates, hugs, kisses, cuddles, monthsary celebration and many other more. How I wish I could turn back the time.

(I took this when we had dinner at yellow cab right in front of our school after the PT model night last July) 

I broke up with my boyfriend last saturday for a reason na kung sa ibang tao siguro iisipin nila ay sobrang babaw. Actually, last Feb. 14 nag cool off kami. Sobrang dami na kasi naming problema na aminado naman siya na siya ang may kasalanan. Naintindihan ko na marami talaga siyang problema sa sarili niya. Pero last March 3, I ended our relationship.

I couldn’t sleep nor eat for two days. Today, I met with him and his mom. Kinausap niya kami. Kamustahan lang. Inamin namin na break na kami. Naintindihan naman niya ako sa dahilan ko at nag-thank you pa siya dahil hindi ko daw iniwan si bf. I actually felt better. 

Honestly, parang wala naman masyadong nabago sa relationship namin nung nag cool off kami. Except sa ~ no kisses and hugs, less time together and less sweetness sa text. Ngayon na nagbreak kami, parang ganun pa din. Pero sabi ko, no more i love you’s, no more holding hands and such and less less time together. I want him to appreciate me more by backing off a little. Parang pahabol effect. Pero generally, ang sweet pa rin talaga namin sa isa’t isa. Parang mag best friend lang.

Hindi ko talaga kaya makipag break. We both love each other so much. Ang besides, madaming pressure sa school, and I don’t want my studies getting affected because of my emotional status. So kung ano man meron kami, ineenjoy at appreciate na lang namin. Both of us need time to grow. Ang twisted ng love story namin, as in. 

THIS. THIS. THIS. THIS.

Ah, the feeling of being cheated. I felt it. It makes me feel alive. More human. I actually felt the pain that I only see in movies.

But honestly, if there’s two girls walking down the street, one with nice smokey eyes and a classy red lipstick and another with shoved up hair and no makeup; red blemishes and dark under-eye circles, you’re going to be looking at the one who made an effort .. and if boys do prefer natural girls, why is it always the girls who wear the most makeup who actually get the boyfriends?

THIS IS SO TRUE. they say they like girls without makeup, but they often don’t know who wears makeup or who doesn’t, they don’t look into details, they look the overall view, and most girls with makeup always end up looking more stunning, glowing, better looking and stand out more than those who don’t.

plus, most guys DO NOT know if that girl they think does not wear makeup actually wears makeup or not, and the truth is MOST do. Girls can look perfectly natural and look as if she does not wear any makeup when she is.. so guys, please be more aware on the things you say you prefer.. cause most of you do not do what you say. 

(via annabellaparker)